Thursday, June 18, 2020

AMSTERDAM: A HISTORY OF THE WORLD'S MOST LIBERAL CITY

"The misfortune of the Hurstwood household was due to the fact that jealousy, having been born of love, did not perish with it.  Mrs. Hurstwood retained this in such form that subsequent influences could transform it into hate.  Hurstwood was still worthy, in a physical sense, of the affection his wife had once bestowed upon him, but in a social sense he fell short.  With his regard died his power to be attentive to her, and this, to a woman, is much greater than outright crime toward another.  Our self-love dictates our appreciation of the good or evil in another.  In Mrs. Hurstwood it discoloured the very hue of her husband's indifferent nature.  She saw design in deeds and phrases which sprung only from a faded appreciation of her presence"--Sister Carrie

I'm now reading Russell Shorto's Amsterdam:  A History of the World's Most Liberal City for my History Meetup.  It's an entertaining, well-written book! (Now I want to read Shorto's other books...) It's all about how 17th-century Amsterdam was the birthplace of modern liberal society, including the multinational corporation in the form of the Dutch East India Company.  Characters like Willem the Silent and Rembrandt are fascinating!

Sister Carrie is engrossing.  There's something that seems very modern about it--I can imagine the story happening in real life. (Someone said that Theodore Dreiser was a master of inarticulate characters!)

I'm now watching three anime shows concurrently!  One is Dragon Ball's sequel Dragon Ball Z.  It's started well with Son Goku dead and doing martial-arts training in the afterlife. (They're going to use the Dragon Ball wish to resurrect him when it's time for earthlings to fight the invaders from the Saiyan planet.) He has a young son Gohan whose fighting potential is so immense that former villain Piccolo (now a reluctant ally) has subjected him to boot camp in a land with dinosaurs rather than people.  Akira Toriyama has an incredible imagination!

I've also been watching the third year of One Piece set in the desert land of Arabasta. (Was Eiichiro Oda influenced by Frank Herbert's Dune?) And I've also been rewatching the first season with Moira, for the third time--it's that good!  I recently finished rewatching the third season of Sailor Moon. (Mimete was a villainess I actually felt sorry for--she had a life beyond villainy, for all the good it did her.) Now I'm watching the fourth season, but it isn't as good as the first three.  Aside from Rini's cute relationship with a winged unicorn, it's getting rather familiar. (I hear that the fifth season got really crazy!)

I've almost finished the Level 3 book of musical theory.

Friday, June 12, 2020

THE BLUE COLLAR TRAP

"A lovely home atmosphere is one of the flowers of the world, than which there is nothing more tender, nothing more delicate, nothing more calculated to make strong and just the natures cradled and nourished within it.  Those who have never experienced such a beneficent influence will not understand wherefore the tear springs glistening to the eyelids at some strange breath in lovely music.  The mystic chords which bind and thrill the heart of the nation, they will never know"--Sister Carrie

Today at archive.org I rewatched the 1972 NBC News White Paper documentary "The Blue Collar Trap." Back when I was ten, we saw it on American TV when we were visiting the USA.  Our visit came in the wake of Hurricane Agnes, at the time of the Watergate break-in. (When Mother heard about in in the news, she predicted it would prove important!) We were also in the Washington DC underground parking lot where Bob Woodward and Carl Bernstein would soon meet Deep Throat...

Anyway, this documentary focused on four young men working at a Ford Pinto factory in California.  A couple of them had fought in Vietnam, one was a "hippie," and one went to this ecstatic church where people were dancing in the aisles. (I'd always imagined church services as quiet, restrained affairs...) They seldom voted on union matters, let alone in public elections.  One of them mentioned that when he was starting out the foreman advised him that instead of staying there he should go back to school and get a better job.  

Watching it today, I couldn't help considering that this was near the end of the "golden age" for the American working class; things have since got harder for them. Of course, this was a decade before Van Gordon Sauter dumbed down CBS News (giving anchorman Dan Rather a jersey to wear on air, etc.) and NBC and ABC followed suit, leaving them unlikely to produce reports this thoughtful again.

But what do I know about physical work?  Well, the last few days I've moved a huge amount of dirt to the back yard from our cellar, and I actually got a bit of a sunburn on my scalp!  I've been wearing gloves, but my hands are still getting sore in places. (A couple of times I've forgotten that I have to tie my shoes before putting my gloves on.) We have ten buckets, and my favourite four are relatively small, with handles.  Two others are small but don't have handles; three have handles but are larger; and my least favourite is large without a handle!  John's also using a jackhammer to break up these cement steps that used to be part of a cellar door, but led to nowhere after the room was built over them.

I've now started watching the anime sequel Dragon Ball Z.  It looks pretty good so far, with Goku dead and seeking martial-arts training in the after-world. (The others plan to use the seven dragon balls to bring him back.) His little son Gohan is undergoing a sort of manhood training alone in the wilderness to develop his immense fighting potential. All this is in preparation for fighting two Saiyan aliens who will arrive on Earth within a year in the hope of destroying it...  What an imagination Akira Toriyama has!

I've already finished Level 1 in the Royal Conservatory's Celebrate Theory series, and the other day Carolyn brought me 2 and 3. (At that Friday Zoom.com session, she and someone else are at level 4, and I should be caught up with them before long.)

Tuesday, June 02, 2020

The Cold War

"Naturally timid in all things that related to her own advancement, and especially so when without power or resource, her craving for pleasure was so strong that it was the one stay of her nature.  She would speak for that when silent on all else"--Sister Carrie

John's been renovating the sun room. (When he's finished, Father will have a downstairs shower!) Just now he's digging in the foundation to make it less mouse-friendly, with Moira and I toting the dirt and rocks to the back yard. There's now the sort of big, low space there where people would hide from the Nazis in a war movie.

I was thinking about the Cold War. Remember the ending of The Maltese Falcon?  Sam Spade hands Brigid over to the cops and they take her down the elevator (whose cage closes on her like prison bars), while Sam takes the stairs down.  Someone said the subtext is that they both go to hell, but Brigid goes there directly while Sam takes the longer route.

Anyway, I was thinking that applies to the post-1980s situation.  Russia went straight to hell in the early '90s with an economic downturn as severe as the Great Depression, while the US has finally reached hell this year.  The Cold War's real "winners," it's now clear, were the Chinese.  They not only reinvented communism, they've reinvented capitalism!

And Reagan didn't even end the Cold War, let alone winning it.  On the contrary, he turned it into something permanent that only needed a new enemy in the form of the Moslems.  His foreign policy decision with the greatest long-term importance was arguably reflagging the Kuwaiti oil tankers just to get in Iran's face and show that Washington was still regionally powerful in the wake of Iran-Contra. This was the first step on a road that led to the 1991 war with Iraq (which I for one consider to have been a contemptible exercise in "power without responsibility"), 9/11, and the ill-starred occupations of Afghanistan and Iraq.  But I think I said that before...

Finally got my Cipralex and Robutrin prescriptions refilled.  I had to message my shrink and it was a bit complicated, so I went without for several days and my dreams got vivid again.

I just bought the Ebook of the first reprint of the manga version of Dragon Ball. (Just finished watching the first anime series--am I ready to take on Dragon Ball Z?)

Friday, May 29, 2020

Watch party

Booker T. Washington: "You will receive a speedy trial and a swift execution."... "Mr. Washington, you speak like an angel.  It's too bad we're down here on earth"--Ragtime

Yesterday I did my first watch party with the History Meetup group, screening Milos Forman's movie of E.L. Doctorow's Ragtime (which I was seeing for the second time). The group wasn't all in the Toronto vicinity; there was one from Brooklyn and another from Austin, Texas.

The movie's a handsome production but it doesn't really work. It removed a lot of the sprawling book, including Sigmund Freud and Emma Goldman and the Peary expedition and the Zapatistas and the Lusitania, but what's left seems less streamlined than spotty.  What seemed "kaleidoscopic" on paper comes across as hit & miss on the screen. (Maybe it could work better as a miniseries.  I have heard good things about the Broadway musical version.) Among other things, the story's central bourgeois family manufactures fireworks, yet we never see any pyrotechnic displays!  Randy Newman's central theme is graceful, but it's a waltz rather than ragtime.

As lady of scandal Evelyn Nesbit, Elizabeth McGovern seemed to me more teenager than sex goddess.  I noticed a lot of future big names in small roles, including Dominic Chianese (Junior Soprano), whom I recognized from his voice!  The best performance is Howard Rollins as Coalhouse Walker, though his storyline struck me as the novel's most dubious. (An African-American heads down the road to radical terrorism because bigoted firemen vandalized his car??  I guess that's supposed to be the sort of black militancy middle-class white readers can identify with.) Doctorow got away with stuff like this in the book because there was so much else going on, but that sort of thing is harder to pull off in a movie.  Earlier on they'd considered hiring Robert Altman to direct it, and his style might have worked better.

I've started learning music theory on Friday afternoons on Zoom with some people from my singing group.  Level 1 was no challenge for me:  so far it's all stuff I remember from my piano-playing days.

Monday, May 25, 2020

Another dry spell

It's been a week and a half since my last post here!  There just hasn't been much going on in my life.

Every day or two I check the latest Covid-19 statistics.  First I check the Canadian figures to see if we're getting closer to ending isolation. (Even though I know a watched pot never boils...)


Then I see the international figures here. (But bear in mind, random testing and death rate statistics suggest that in the USA the true figure is two or three times as big!)


This page shows new cases.  It looks like Iran's already in a second wave.


It's Victoria Day, and the warm weather has arrived.  We're now opening the living room windows, and today I mowed the lawn for the first time this year.  I also brought out my summer hat.  John finished relaying the floor of the big second-storey room that used to be mine, and it was fun helping him align the individual boards so the whole thing would be flush!

Thursday night the book club met and discussed Leaves of Grass.  Only a few people came, but the book was a real revelation for me!  Walt Whitman was a rare original.

I now have over 5000 followers on Twitter, a number that exceeds people I follow.  That means I can be more lenient in following more Tweeters, since my maximum is now something like 5500!

I finished rewatching the third season of Sailor Moon, and now I'm on the last arc of Dragon Ball, with Son Goku doing nth-degree training up above the clouds with Mr. Popo.  Some people think Popo is racist, but I find him pretty cool.

Peaky Blinders is getting to be a little much.  It's the kind of show where we see Churchill painting with a nude model. (I could hear them thinking, "What can we throw in that's attention-grabbing?") One Youtube comment said, "I got lung cancer just from watching the show." Not only do the characters smoke a lot, there's generally a smoggy industrial atmosphere!

Friday, May 15, 2020

Online Meetups

Whereto answering, the sea,
Delaying not, hurrying not,
Whisper'd me through the night, and very plainly before daybreak,
Lisp'd to me the low and delicious word death,
And again death, death, death, death,
Hissing melodious, neither like the bird nor like my arous'd child's heart,
But edging near as privately for me rustling at my feet,
Creeping thence steadily up to my ears and leaving me softly all over,
Death, death, death, death, death.

--a rather Povian verse from Walt Whitman's "Out of the Cradle Endlessly Rocking"

Today I hosted the first online event for my Meetup groups.  My History Meetup discussed the world in 1900, and it felt pretty timely.  I actually came on an hour early, but Subha from Korea made the same goof and we had a good talk waiting for the others to arrive.  In the weeks to be come I'll be hosting the book club online and even have a watch party for a historical movie.

I've really been getting into Walt Whitman's poetry! (I was worried about finishing it in time for next week's Meetup, but I'm well on schedule.) His sea poems are vivid, and he wrote some of the finest poems about old age.

Just finished rewatching the King Piccolo arc of Dragon Ball. (Now it's time to return to Sailor Moon.) That arc is the series' best of all!  It involves the evil alien King Piccolo out to reconquer and destroy the world, who's killed three of Goku's friends so they want to find the dragon balls to bring them back to life and Goku wants to destroy Piccolo, but Piccolo got the dragon balls and rejuvenated his superpowers and then killed the dragon...   Tribesman Yajirobe is a funny sidekick for Goku.  The part where they go through an icy underground maze with a spirit who plays mind games, to get a drink of ultradivine water, is especially imaginative.  And the subplot about Tenshinhan's need to take on Piccolo in order to atone for his past misbehaviour is dramatically strong.

We've started watching Peaky Blinders on Netflix.  It stars Cillian Murphy as a numbers racketeer in Birmingham, England a century ago dealing with communists and the IRA as well as the police.  The music's oddly anachronistic, like in Boardwalk Empire.

Saturday, May 09, 2020

Bits and pieces

I'm ashamed of myself, taking so long between posts on this blog!  Why don't I feel motivated?

I've found some more virtual Meetup events.  On Saturday nights I do a virtual karaoke.  I don't have a handheld mike and the audio has trouble, but I sing five songs at each event.  And on Sunday mornings there's an event where we talk military history.

I've returned to watching Dragon Ball, now the third season with the second worldwide martial-arts competition. And I bought and read an Ebook of the first chapters of the manga version of One Piece.

It's less than two weeks to the virtual Book Club, so I'll have to get Leaves of Grass read. (I had to google the word "eidolon"--it's a sort of spirit-image.)

John finished remodelling the kitchen, so now he's renovating the big second-floor room that he'd previously been keeping all his tools in.  He pulled up all the floorboards, and I helped him drive out all the nails, which means hammering them on the sharp side to push them up enough for a hammer claw to do the rest.  When that's finished, we can make it into a guest room and move in the excess furniture now in my and Moira's rooms.

Today there were some snow flurries! (The big temperature drop gave me another headache.) I remember when I was growing up in New Brunswick, there'd be snow in May once every several years.

I'm now in the Orcs and Goblins chapter of the online Elvenar game.

I now have over 4800 followers on Twitter.  Which means my ceiling of Tweeters I can follow has finally been raised a bit above 5000!

Thursday, April 30, 2020

Zoom!

Sailor Venus on Esmerald: "Not only does her attitude bite, but so does her voice!" Sailor Jupiter: "Well, she has the loudest voice in the universe, so I guess we'll know when she's here!"--Sailor Moon

I've downloaded the zoom.com arc and entered the world of online conferencing. (In the '70s wasn't there a PBS children's show titled Zoom!?) I was at an online Meetup event Sunday, and Monday I participated again in my now-online memoir group:  I read them that piece I'd written several weeks ago.  I've also moved the Meetup groups I organize to the online format.

Just finished rewatching the "Dark  Moon" arc of Sailor Moon, which comprises the last two-thirds of the second season.  The story gets pretty convoluted:  a rather bratty younger girl called Rini literally falls out of the sky, who eventually turns out to be the daughter of Serena and Darien's future selves in 3000 A.D. when they're ruling Crystal Tokyo! (She returns to our time in the later seasons and becomes a Sailor Scout herself...) Darien, who's finally become Serena's boyfriend, gets these visions that Serena will be in mortal danger if he marries her, so he dumps her.  Later it turns out that the future Darien was messing with his mind to make sure that their relationship was strong enough for the battle ahead... (Destroy their relationship in order to save it, huh?)

This arc has a hit & miss array of ten villains, including Rini who briefly turns into Wicked Lady because the Wise Man villain has been messing with her mind! Counter-intuitively, over half of them get "redeemed" in the end.  I liked it when Neflyte got redeemed in the first season, and Alan and Ann in the previous Doom Tree arc, but this yields diminishing returns.  I do like the sheer shamelessness of the villainess Esmerald! (The first season villains took their names from varieties of jade, and several of these villains are named for precious jewels.) 

Like the Malachite arc at the end of the first season, this arc is uneven but has some great episodes--particularly after the Sailor Scouts enter the Time-Space corridor to fight the villains, who want to conquer the future earth.  I especially like the moment when Serena's heading off for the final battle and meets her civilian friend Molly, who hints that she knows Serena's true identity and ends up praying for her. (It works better in the original Japanese version--the DiC dub softens the religious aspect.)

Finally did my taxes!

Wednesday, April 22, 2020

Youtube musicals

My new time-killing interest is watching stage musicals on Youtube.  You can find whole shows of a high quality there!  I'm interested in stuff like Oliver! and Pacific Overtures and Guys and Dolls.  Yesterday I watched a video of the 2018 Broadway revival of Carousel (actually a preview of the show). 

And today I saw Sam Mendes' famous 1993 Cabaret production with Alan Cumming as the MC.  Powerful ending!  That show seems particularly timely in 2020, with so many people sleepwalking into disaster...

I finally finished The Vertigo Years, which my mind keeps mistitling The Vortex Years!  I've now started reading Walt Whitman's poetry opus Leaves of Grass--I just read a few poems at the start so I could write here that I've started it.

I finished rewatching the second year of Dragon Ball and started the second season of Sailor Moon.  The first third is the Doom Tree arc, with two aliens pretending to be schoolkids Alan and Ann. (They're my favourite second-season villains.) That arc has my personal favourite episode, "Mirror, Mirror on the Wall," where they're putting on a play of Snow White and have to deal with a clown monster!

I've started reading manga online.  Right now I'm reading Candy Candy, a romantic girl's comic from the late '70s about an orphan called Candy White who's hired by a rich family to serve as companion for this nasty sister and brother pair but gets treated as a servant and has to live in the stables, but this boy on a neighbouring estate falls in love with her... It has a certain Cinderella sensibility, and that's just the start of a soap opera spanning decades of her life.  I just found out that forty years ago they made an anime of Anne of Green Gables!

We've finished putting everything in the kitchen, so our dining room is in pre-clutter mode again.

Last weekend was warm, so I walked out to Hillcrest Park. (There were few people there, so I had an easy time keeping social distance.)

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Post-Easter chocolate

Bulma: "If there's a boat there must be people, and where there's people there's shopping!"--Dragonball

I got off my bum today and went to Shoppers Drug Mart for my annual ritual of buying discounted Easter candy.  I had to wait in a queue to get in, but when I left it was significantly longer.  My favourite stuff is the chocolate-covered marshmallows.

I finished the second year of One Piece. Episodes 85 and 86 are must-see, telling the back story of the anthropomorphized reindeer Chopper.  Now Moira has started watching it!

Now I'm watching the dubbed Dragonball again, six episodes a day.  It's really fun, though I admit a lot of the humour is on the vulgar side. In the storyline I'm now rewatching Son Goku is up against the sinister Red Ribbon Army in a new search for the seven balls, resulting in some funny villains.  Goku climbed into Muscle Tower and met the Frankenstein-like Android #8, who turned out to be a  mild-mannered pacifist he made friends with and dubbed 8er!  That's the sort of thing Luffy often does with prospective enemies on One Piece too. (One Piece artist Eiichiro Oda started out as an assistant on Dragonball, and the earlier show's influence is clear.)

Yes, I am disappointed about Bernie Sanders endorsing Joe Biden.  I think that the best way to stop Trump is by stopping someone as unelectable as Biden from getting the Democratic nomination.  Don't be passive and accept it as a done deal!  And the only chance of preventing Biden's nomination is if enough voters promise not to choose him in November.  It's time for Sanders' movement to outgrow him.

My Twitter account got another three-day freeze after following too many fellow Tweeters!  On Twitter I've seen talk of a general strike, and I think the best time would be after the self-isolation ends and the elite is relying on the economy getting restarted. (I feel like a syndicalist from a century ago...)

I'm almost finished The Vortex Years.  There's a lot of talk about Freud and Nietzsche and the latent violence that presaged the Great War.

Our kitchen is almost finished--we now have all the shelves installed and most of them are filled.  I hope we can go back to eating at the dinner table again soon!

Tuesday, April 07, 2020

OZARK

There still isn't much to talk about.  I'm now in the second year of One Piece, with the gang entering the Grand Line and getting involved with a very sinister organization. (Right now they're at a prehistoric island with dinosaurs, volcanoes and two giants!)

We've almost finished the third season of Ozark on Netflix.  It's hardly morally uplifting, but it's a pretty great show.  These characters aren't admirable, but they're smart and believable!  Janet McTeer has a good role as the drug cartel's icy lawyer.  There's a great quarrel at the start of the sixth episode.

On Twitter I'm always on the lookout for new Tweeters to follow.  On Friday I found a thread devoted to Tweeters with few followers, and I followed a lot of them because they're more likely to follow me back.  I gained almost a hundred followers in one day, and I'm getting closer to a total of 4000!  The catch was that Twitter suspected I was a bought, and suspended my ability to follow for three days, along with my ability to like and retweet other posts. But now I'm back.


I've had to suspend the Meetup events I organize for a month.  I just hope the self-isolation is over by May!  Oh well, Canada's doing better than several places...

It's time to do my taxes!

Monday, March 30, 2020

Back from the dead

Yes, it's been a week since I posted here last, and I do wish I had more to talk about!  Today I suggested we dine on pizza, only to find the corner pizza shop has closed for now because of you-know-what.  Then I went to McDonald's, only to find that you have to place orders through their mobile app!  So we had omelet again.

Brother John's almost finished renovating the kitchen.  All that's left is some shelves and a new counter top. The other day we moved our new refrigerator in there, and our dining room feels less cluttered.

Today my memoir group had a phone conference call where we all recited memoir pieces we'd written.  The subject I chose was anime, and I talked about Sailor Moon.  Too bad I moved the phone away from my mouth at times!

I finished watching the first 47 episodes of One Piece.  The Arlong Park story is great, climaxing in a big four-episode fight with the horrifying fish-men.  Even if you aren't into anime, I highly recommend episodes 35 and 36.  Those episodes show the backstory of Nami the navigator and explain why she's been robbing other pirates. (All the crew have superb back stories starting in their early childhood.) It's emotionally powerful and shows what a deep writer Eiichiro Oda can be--this isn't just another adventure yarn.  Her foster mother Bellemere is a great character for someone who only appears briefly!

I've started watching the new anime Cardcaptor Sakura.  It's from the "magical girls" genre, and the title character is a schoolgirl, about four years younger than Sailor Moon, who has to retake spirits from these tarot-like cards that escaped from an occult book she carelessly opened. (In the first two episodes she recovers Flight and Shadow.) Her sidekick is the spirit Kero, who looks like a teddy bear with wings. She also has a rich girlfriend who makes her fancy costumes to fit her function--remember the Strawberry Shortcake dolls?--and videotapes her heroics. (After each episode Kero spends a couple of minutes displaying Sakura's clothes!)

It's a pretty cute show altogether.  I'm impressed by its low-key tone in comparison to more conventional slam-bang anime, well suited to younger kids. (I remember how my mother admired the low-key tone of Captain Kangaroo.) I have a feeling I'll be checking out quite a few anime before this crisis is over...

Strangely, I have a feeling that overall society may actually benefit from this forced solitude!  Maybe what we most need is time for greater self-reflection and more learning.

Sunday, March 22, 2020

Time passes...

The lockdown continues. (Though today I walked out to Hillcrest Park just to get out of the house.)

I finished re-watching the first season of Sailor Moon.  What a powerful finale! The Sailor Scouts found out that in the past Sailor Moon's mother, Queen Serenity of the Moon, had been in a fight with destructive Queen Beryl so she'd sacrificed her own life to give all their spirits new lives in today's world. Then they all went to the Negaverse entrance near the North Pole or somewhere, and all the other Sailor Scouts sacrificed their lives protecting Sailor Moon, then Queen Beryl ordered the brainwashed Tuxedo Mask to kill Sailor Moon, but her Star Locket brought back his memories and he ended up sacrificing his life to save her, then Sailor Moon had her final confrontation with Queen Beryl and felt the spirits of the dead Sailor Scouts and combined forces with them and managed to destroy Queen Beryl and save the earth, sacrificing her own life to do so.... Then there was some "transmigration" by which all of them went back to the lives they had before finding out their superhero destinies, with only their cat mentors remembering what had happened--until the next season...

I've started watching the first season of One Piece again, this time the dubbed version for variety's sake.  Captain Buggy rocks! (Even if he does owe a little something to the Joker...) Just saw a great episode involving a dog still guarding his late master's pet food store.

Biden supporters are exasperating!  If Sanders continues to campaign, either Doddering Joe will manage to survive without being "undermined," or he won't.  If he does, they have nothing to worry about. But if he can't make it through a full primary campaign without being undermined, he's the wrong choice for the nomination. (One purpose of a primary campaign is to show who's the wrong choice, right?) Then he's the one they should be pressuring to drop out instead of Sanders.  In demanding that the campaign be cut short, they're actually showing how little faith they have in his "electability."

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

What I learned from Sailor Mercury

"In reality it was just what is usually seen in the houses of people with moderate means who want to appear rich, and therefore succeed only in resembling others like themselves:  there are damasks, dark wood, plants, rugs, dull and polished bronzes--all the things people of a certain class have in order to resemble other people of that class"--"Death of Ivan Ilyich"

Tonight was going to be the Short Story Meetup, but it got cancelled at the last minute.  And I'd spent the morning and afternoon reading the whole of "The Death of Ivan Ilyich"!  Oh, well--I'm proud that I could read a novella of almost 70 pages that quickly. (It was a revelation, oddly life-affirming.)

What with the coronavirus, I'm being a homebody just now--not that I'm not often a homebody at normal times.  The local No Frills supermarket had a queue of people waiting to get in! (They've run out of bananas.) I've been feeling a bit under the weather, so I went out and got some huge pomelo grapefruit on Sunday morning when it was less crowded.

I heard about all the untruths Doddering Joe was telling Bernie in their debate last night.  A liar says things he knows aren't true; a bullshitter doesn't care whether he's telling the truth!  I think Biden's a bullshitter, just like Reagan. (Rob Reiner Tweeted, "Sanders is an advocate.  Biden is a President." I commented, "Sanders is a leader.  Biden is a weasel.") Hard to believe they haven't delayed tomorrow's voting in the current emergency...

Which brings me to Sailor Moon, which I've been binge-watching again.  The other day I started the second half of the first season, when the show's quality sharply increased.  The turning point came when Molly fell in love with Neflyte the Negaverse villain, standing in front of him to protect him from Sailor Moon's tiara, and Neflyte died protecting her, achieving a certain redemption.  Now I'm watching the Zoisite arc, which is about how seven innocent people--six people and one cat, actually--have the spirits of Negaverse warriors inside them and nasty Zoisite uses the Star Crystal to awaken the spirits and turn the innocents into monsters for Sailor Moon to restore with her Moon Healing Sceptre.  

If Neflyte is the best first-season villain, Zoisite is a strong second.  (In addition, she was female in the manga, male in the Japanese anime, and female again in the DiC English dub!) When the monsters come forth, they also produce seven Rainbow Crystals for the Sailor Scouts, the Negaverse and rescuer Tuxedo Mask to fight over.  These are "filler" episodes that weren't in the manga, but like the second season's Doom Tree arc, it's darn good filler! (The seven McGuffins device, of course, was also used in Dragon Ball.)

Of particular interest to me just now was the third episode, "Mercury's Mental Match." (It's one of the ones animated by Masahiro Ando, where the characters look a bit different with more rounded faces, the sort of difference us Moonies notice.) It involves Greg, a schoolboy with psychic powers that he used to ace school exams just ahead of mousy brainiac Amy, whom he has a crush on and wants to meet. Amy, of course is also Sailor Mercury, the one with the defensive Bubbles Blast.  But he's also one of the crystal carriers, and with his psychic powers he knows that Zoisite wants to awaken his inner monster! 

There's a scene where Greg is talking to Sailor Mercury, who he knows is Amy because he's psychic, and asks her to promise to destroy him when he becomes a monster because he doesn't want to become a Negaverse tool.  But Mercury urges him not to give up but  to fight against the evil.  Then Zoisite comes along and turns him into a monster, but even in monster form he manages to turn against his master!  Sailor Moon heals him, and the Sailor Scouts even get his crystal. (Zoisite gets it back in the "Tuxedo Melvin" episode, but that's another story...)

I was thinking about this because of the Sanders-Biden debate.  Progressive Democrats mustn't give up; they have to keep fighting for Sanders and not succumb to being Biden's tool!

Friday, March 13, 2020

THE VERTIGO YEARS

I've finished the books on the French Revolution and started Philipp Blom's The Vertigo Years:  Change and Culture in the West, 1900-1914.  It's a fascinating look at the world just before the Great War broke out, the historical period that interests me the most. (Moira's already read it.) I'm reading it for next month's History Meetup.

And tonight was this month's History Meetup, where we discussed the French Revolution.  Ten people came despite the coronavirus scare.  The Dora Keogh people were nice enough to give us a room in the back!  It had a rather low overhead light, so I felt like we were a group of revolutionaries getting together to plot an insurrection or something... (I've been watching that series about Trotsky on Netflix.)

Yes, I am depressed about the Democratic primaries.  If any Democrat can blow the November election, it's Doddering Joe!  Democrats who vote to nominate him aren't just idiots but cowards.  They're already bringing back the "Vote Blue No Matter Who!" mantra, which is preaching to the choir. "It doesn't matter who we're nominating, just vote for him unanimously!" isn't the best way to win over the "swing voters" you need in the general election.  It's a signal that you've already lost the argument.  It's demoralizing that the Democratic Party keeps repeating the same mistakes year after year...

I misplaced that book of Walt Whitman poems I bought a couple of months ago, so I had to buy a new copy at Chapters-Indigo near Eglinton Station.  Someone in the book club wanted me to post a scan of the cover so she could get the same copy, but in the end I could only describe it.

Last Saturday afternoon I met Maria and Sergey at Demetre's near Chester Station for a crepe.  I'm always glad to meet them.

On Youtube I saw the first video in the Nostalgia Critic series, posted over a decade ago.  It's a scream! (See above.)


Friday, March 06, 2020

Classic Book Club

Tuesday John P. and I visited the Royal Ontario Museum.  Like the AGO, John has a membership so he got me in free, including the exhibit of award-winning wildlife photographs. (My favorites were one of a buffalo in the winter and one that a Hungarian kid took that looked like an impressionist painting!) Afterward he treated me to dinner at the Museum Tavern, where I had fish and chips.

Wednesday I had a huge headache! (Must have been the weather, of course.) That night I saw a Kirov Ballet production of Tchaikovsky's Swan Lake on Youtube.  I hadn't seen the whole thing before, except for Matthew Bourne's strange '90s version with the male swans.  But I had seen the second act when I was 12 and we saw a touring Bolshoi Ballet in Wolfville, N.S., just after Mikhail Baryshnikov had defected from them in Toronto.  Mother thought they looked demoralized...

Today my Classic Book Club discussed Steppenwolf.  Only three people showed up (including me), and there was a private event at Dora Keogh so we had to move to Zaza Espresso a few blocks away.  But we had an interesting enough conversation!


I've been watching more of Doug Walker's Nostalgia Critic movie pans on Youtube. (He's reviewed all four Care Bears videos!) The other day I saw his attack on the misconceived live-action version of Dr. Seuss' The Cat in the Hat, which reminded me of a horror movie. Among Doug's costars, Rachel Teitz was really funny playing a little girl.

Monday, March 02, 2020

Putty, putty

I spotted a mouse in my room, so we've made a big effort to clean it, including ripping out the carpeting in my closet.  I was stuffing steel wool into the gap at the bottom of the walls, but put in too much and ran out.  You haven't lived till you've stuffed steel wool into those gaps!  Some British writer in The Guardian was wondering why anyone would want to live to 100, but there are always these new experiences...

Yesterday was the Mathematicians Meetup.  We were discussing Paul Lockhart's The Mathematician's Lament, and I wondered how his way of teaching math would work in practice. (Educational reform has been full of ideas that looked great on paper but didn't work well in practice...)

Speaking of theory vs. practice, I just finished the Beginner's Guide book about the French Revolution and started the Short Introduction by William Doyle. (Why read just one book about it?)

Today we were pouring liquid concrete on the kitchen floor to level it out.  My job was to provide water from the bathroom in four-litre batches to mix the concrete. (The kitchen water was out of commission, of course.) It reminded me of this episode of M*A*S*H where they were laying a concrete floor and Father Mulcahy was singing the song "Cement mixer, putty, putty." I didn't watch the show much but I do remember that scene!

I've been binge-watching the anime Sailor Moon again.  I like the moments where she uses the first-season lunar pen to transform herself into an adult appearance. (Like in the pic above.) Some of us grownups feel like kids in disguise--I'm typing this with the Julia doll in my lap...

Thursday, February 27, 2020

More STEPPENWOLF quotes

I finished Steppenwolf Sunday, then started reading Peter Davies' The French Revolution:  A Beginner's Guide for my History Meetup.

Monday I had dinner with Maria and Sergey at Yorkville Crepes.  Then we went to the Yorkville Library for the Short Story Meetup, where we discussed three more Chekhov stories: "In the Ravine" (which made my jaw drop!), "The Bishop" and "The Lady With the Dog." John S. was there and gave me a copy of the Frank Norris novel McTeague, upon which Erich Von Stroheim's silent classic Greed is based!  Another book that I hope to read someday...

Donald came over for his birthday and I bought a cake at Loblaw's.  I grabbed the first vanilla cake I saw, and its expiry date was tomorrow so I got it half-price--I hope that doesn't make me a cheapskate.

Can't resist posting some more Steppenwolf quotes!

"Now and again I have expressed the opinion that every nation, and even every person, would do better, instead of rocking himself to sleep with political catchwords about war guilt, to ask himself how far his own fault and negligences and evil tendencies are guilty of the war and all the other wrongs of the world, and that therein lies the only possible means of avoiding the next war.  They don't forgive me that, for, of course, they are themselves all guiltless, the Kaiser, the generals, the trade magnates, the politicians, the papers.  Not one of them has the least thing to blame himself for.  Not one has any guilt.  One might believe that everything was for the best, even though a few million men lie under the ground. And mind you, Hermine, even though such abusive articles cannot annoy me any longer, they often sadden me all the same.  Two-thirds of my countrymen read this kind of newspaper, read things written in this tone every morning and every night, are every day worked up and admonished and incited, and robbed of their peace of mind and better feelings by them, and the end and aim of it all is to have the war over again, the next war that draws nearer and nearer, and it will be a good deal more horrible than the last.  All that is perfectly clear and simple.  Any one could comprehend it and reach the same conclusion after a moment's reflection.  But nobody wants to.  Nobody wants to avoid the next war, nobody wants to spare himself and his children the next holocaust if this be the cost."

"You have a picture of life within you, a faith, a challenge, and you were ready for deeds and sufferings and sacrifices, and then you became aware  by degrees that the world asked no deeds and no sacrifices of you whatever, and that life is no poem of heroism with heroic parts to play and so on, but a comfortable room where people are quite content with eating and drinking, coffee and knitting, cards and wireless.  And whoever wants more and has got it in him--the heroic and the beautiful, and the reverence for the great poets or for the saints--is a fool and a Don Quixote.  Good."

"The communion of the saints, in earlier times it was set by painters in a golden heaven, shining, beautiful and full of peace, and it is nothing else but what I meant a moment ago when I called it eternity.  It is there we belong.  There is our home.  It is that which our heart strives for.  And for that reason, Steppenwolf, we long for death....  Ah, Harry, we have to stumble through so much dirt and humbug before we reach home.  And we have no one to guide us.  Our only guide is our homesickness."

"For the first time I understood Goethe's laughter, the laughter of the immortals.  It was a laughter without an object.  It was simply light and lucidity.  It was that which is left over when a true man has passed through all the sufferings, vices, mistakes, passions and misunderstandings of men and got through to eternity and the world of space.  And eternity was nothing else than the redemption of time, its return to innocence, so to speak, and its transformation again into space."

"I was bathed in sweet joy like a rippling pool.  And yet that was only the shell.  Within all was significant and tense with fate, and while, love-lost and tender, I was busied with the little sweet appealing things of love and sank apparently without a care in the caress of happiness, I was conscious all the while in my heart how my fate raced on at breakneck speed, racing and chasing like a frightened horse, straight for the precipitous abyss, spurred on by dread and longing to the consummation of death."

"In the mood between joy and fear that fate and parting imposed on me just now, all the stations and shrines of meditation in my life's pilgrimage caught once more that gleam of pain and beauty that comes from things past; and so too had the little tavern, thick with smoke, among whose patrons I had lately been numbered and whose primitive opiate of a bottle of cheap wine had lately heartened me enough to spend one more night in my lonely bed and to endure life for one more day."

At the movies: "I saw the prophet and his awestruck people pass through to the other side, and behind them I saw the war chariots of Pharaoh come into sight and the Egyptians stop and start on the brink of the sea, and then, when they ventured courageously on, I saw the mountainous waters close over the heads of Pharaoh in all the splendour of his gold trappings and over all his chariots and all his men, recalling, as I saw it, Handel's wonderful duet for two basses in which this event is magnificently sung.  I saw Moses, further, climbing Sinai, a gloomy hero in a gloomy wilderness of rocks, and I looked on as Jehovah in the midst of storm and thunder and lightning imparted the Ten Commandments to him, while his worthless people set up the golden calf at the foot of the mountain and gave themselves over to somewhat roisterous celebrations.  I found it so strange and incredible to be looking on at all this, to be seeing the sacred writ, with its heroes and its wonders, the source in our childhood of the first dawning suspicion of another world than this, presented for money before a grateful public that sat quietly eating the provisions brought with it from home.  A nice little picture, indeed, picked up by chance in the huge wholesale clearance of culture in these days!"

"As a marionette whose thread the operator has let go for a moment wakes to new life after a brief paralysis of death and coma and once more plays its lively part, so did I at this jerk of the magic thread throw myself with the elasticity and eagerness of youth into the tumult from which I had just retreated in the listlessness and weariness of elderly years.  Never did sinner show more haste to get to hell."

"There aren't any police and such like any more.  We can choose, Dora.  Either we stay quietly up here and shoot down every car that tries to pass, or else we can take a car and drive off in it and let others shoot at us. It's all the same which side we take.  I'm for staying here."

"When you listen to radio you are a witness of the everlasting war between idea and appearance, between time and eternity, between the human and the divine.  Exactly, my dear sir, as the radio for ten minutes together projects the most lovely music without regard into the most impossible places, into respectable drawing rooms and attics and into the midst of chattering, guzzling, yawning and sleeping listeners, and exactly as it strips this music of its sensuous beauty, spoils and scratches and beslimes it and yet cannot altogether destroy its spirit, just so does life, the so-called reality, deal with the sublime picture-play of the world and make a hurly-burly of it."

Saturday, February 22, 2020

THE WAR LORD


"The pious," she went on meditatively, "after all know most about this.  That is why they set up the saints and what they call the communion of the saints.  The saints, these are the true men, the younger brothers of the Saviour.  We are with them all our lives long in every good deed, in every brave thought, in every love.  The communion of the saints, in earlier times it was set by painters in a golden heaven, shining, beautiful and full of peace, and it is nothing else but what I meant a moment ago when I called it eternity.  It is the kingdom on the other side of time and appearances.  It is there we belong.  There is our home.  It is that which our heart strives for.  And for that reason, Steppenwolf, we long for death.  There you will find your Goethe again and Novalis and Mozart, and I my saints, Christopher, Philip of Neri and all.  There are many saints who at first were sinners.  Even sin can be a way to saintliness, sin and vice.  You will laugh at me, but I often think that even my friend Pablo might be a saint in hiding.  Ah, Harry, we have to stumble through so much dirt and humbug before we reach home.  And we have no one to guide us.  Our only guide is our homesickness"--Steppenwolf

Yesterday John P. took me on a tour of the Art Gallery of Ontario.  I've been there before, but not with someone who had so much to say about the art there. He has more artistic opinions than I do!  He even treated me to dinner at the AGO restaurant afterward. (I had a cornish hen and churro funnel cake.)

That evening I saw Franklin J. Schaffner's The War Lord (for the second time), screening the video for the History Meetup.  It's one of the more intelligent movies about feudalism, with Charlton Heston well cast as the antihero lead.

Last week at the History Meetup, where we discussed Thailand, Bohdan gave me a fancy coffee-table book about the architectural marvels of the world!


Monday, February 17, 2020

STEPPENWOLF quotes

Steppenwolf is an amazing novel, really original!  Here are some quotes from the  Basil Creighton translation I'm reading:

"When the lecturer ascended the platform and began his address, many of his hearers, who had expected a sort of prophet, were disappointed by his rather dapper appearance and conceited air.  And when he proceeded, by way of thanking them for their attendance in such numbers, the Steppenwolf threw me a quick look, a look which criticized both the words and the speaker of them--an unforgettable and frightful look which spoke volumes!  It was a look that did not simply criticize the lecturer, annihilating the famous man with its delicate but crushing irony.  That was the least of it.  It was more sad than ironical; it was indeed utterly and hopelessly sad; it conveyed a quiet despair, born partly of conviction, partly of a mode of thought which had become habitual with him.  This despair of his not only unmasked the conceited lecturer and dismissed with its irony the matter at hand, the expectant attitude of the public, the somewhat presumptuous title under with the lecture was announced--no, the Steppenwolf's look pierced our whole epoch, its whole overwrought activity, the whole surge and strife, the whole vanity, the whole superficial play of a shallow, opinionated intellectuality.  And alas! the look went still deeper, went far below the faults, defects and hopelessness of our time, our intellect, our culture alone.  It went right to the heart of all humanity, it bespoke eloquently in a single second the whole meaning of man's life.  It said: 'See what monkeys we are!  Look, such is man!' and at once all renown, all intelligence, all the attainments of the spirit, all progress towards the sublime, the great and the enduring in man fell away and became a monkey's trick!'"

"Every age, every culture, every custom and tradition has its own character, its own weakness and its own strength, its beauties and ugliness; accepts certain sufferings as matters of course, puts up patiently with certain evils.  Human life is reduced to real suffering, to hell, only when two ages, two cultures and religions overlap."

"When I have neither pleasure nor pain and have ben breathing for a while the lukewarm insipid air of these so-called good and tolerable days, I feel so bad in my childish soul that I smash my moldering lyre of thanksgiving in the face of the slumbering god of contentment and would rather feel the very devil burn in my than this warmth of a well-heated room.  A wild longing for strong emotions and sensations seethes in me, a rage against this toneless, flat, normal and sterile life.  I have a mad impulse to smash something, a warehouse, perhaps, or a cathedral, or myself, to commit outrages, to pull off the wigs of a few revered idols, to provide a few rebellious schoolboys with the longed-for ticket to Hamburg, or to stand one or two representatives of the established order on their heads."

On hearing jazz: "I stood for a moment on the scent, smelling this shrill and blood-raw music, sniffing the atmosphere of the hall angrily, and hankering after it a little too.  One half of this music, the melody, was all pomade and sugar and sentimentality.  The other half was savage, temperamental and vigorous.  Yet the two went artlessly well together and made a whole.  It was the music of decline.  There must have been such music in Rome under the later Emperors.  Compared with Bach and Mozart and real music it was, naturally, a miserable affair; but so was all our art, all our thought, all our makeshift culture in comparison with real culture.  The music was at least sincere, unashamedly primitive and childishly happy.  There was something of the Negro in it, and something of the American, who with all his strength seems so boyishly fresh and childlike to us Europeans.  Was Europe to become the same?  Was it on the way already?"

"Now, whoever thinks that he knows the Steppenwolf and that he can imagine to himself his lamentably divided life is nevertheless in error.  He does not know all by a long way.  He does not know that, as there is no rule without an exception and as one sinner may under certain circumstances be dearer to God than ninety and nine righteous persons, with Harry too there were now and then exceptions and strokes of good luck, and that he could breathe and think and feel sometimes as the wolf, sometimes as the man, clearly and without confusion of the two; and even on very rare occasions, they made peace and lived for one another in such fashion that not merely did one keep watch whilst the other slept but each strengthened and confirmed the other."

"For it appears to be an inborn and imperative need of all men to regard the self as a unit.  However often and however grievously this illusion is shattered, it always mends again.  The judge who sits over the murderer and looks into his face, and at one moment recognizes all the emotions and potentialities and possibilities of the murderer in his own soul and hears the murderer's voice as his own, is at the next moment one and indivisible as the judge, and scuttles back into the shell of his cultivated self and does his duty and condemns the murderer to death.  And if ever the suspicions of their manifold being dawns upon men of unusual powers and of unusually delicate perceptions, so that, as all genius must, they break through the illusion of the unity of the personality and perceive that the self is made up of a bundle of selves, they have only to say so and at once the majority puts them under lock and key, calls science to aid, establishes schizomania and protects humanity from the necessity of hearing the cry of truth from the lips of these unfortunate persons."

"His coffin was set down before a simple hole in the ground, and I saw the clergyman and the other vultures and functionaries of a burial establishment going through their performances, to which they endeavoured to give all the appearance of great ceremony and sorrow with such effect that they outdid themselves and from pure acting they got caught in their own lies and ended by being comic....  Nor could anyone be talked into a pious frame of mind; and when the clergyman addressed the company repeatedly as 'dear fellow-Christians,' all the silent faces of these shop people and master bakers and their wives were turned down in embarrassment and expressed nothing but the wish that this uncomfortable function might soon be over."

On a professor: "He believes in the studies whose servant he is; he believes in the value of mere knowledge and its acquisition, because he believes in progress and evolution.  He has not been through the war, nor is he acquainted with the shattering of the foundations of thought by Einstein (that, thinks he, only concerns the mathematicians). He sees nothing of the preparations for the next war that are going on all round him.  He hates Jews and Communists.  He is a good, unthinking, happy child, who takes himself seriously; and, in fact, he is much to be envied."

"He was holding a newspaper to which he subscribed, an organ of the militarist and jingoist party, and after shaking hands he pointed to it and commented on a paragraph about a namesake of mine--a publicist called Haller, a bad fellow and a rotten patriot--who had been making fun of the Kaiser and expressing the view that his own country was no less responsible for the outbreak of the war than the enemy nations.  There was a man for you!  The editor had given him his deserts and put him in the pillory.  However, when the professor saw that I was not interested, we passed to other topics, and the possibility that this horrid fellow might be sitting in front of them did not even remotely occur to either of them.  Yet so it was, I myself was that horrid fellow.  Well, why make a fuss and upset people?  I laughed to myself, but gave up all hope now of a pleasant evening."

On a picture of Goethe: "'Let us hope,' said I, 'that Goethe did not really look like this.  This conceited air of nobility, the great man ogling the distinguished company, and beneath the manly exterior what a world of charming sentimentality!  Certainly, there is much to be said against him.  I have a good deal against his venerable pomposity myself.  But to represent him like this--no, that is going too far.'"

"Before this in any case I didn't see eye to eye with the professor.  Like nearly all professors, he is a great patriot, and during the war did his bit in the way of deceiving the public, with the best intentions, of course.  I, however, am opposed to war.  But that's all one."

Monday, February 10, 2020

STEPPENWOLF

"He who has known the other days, the angry ones of gout attacks, or those with that wicked headache rooted behind the eyeballs that casts a spell on every nerve of eye and ear with a fiendish delight in torture, or soul-destroying, evil days of inward vacancy and despair, when, on this distracted earth, sucked dry by the vampires of finance, the world of men and of so-called culture grins back at us with the lying, vulgar, brazen glamour of a Fair and dogs us with the persistence of an emetic, and when all is concentrated and focused to the last pitch of the intolerable upon your own sick self--he who has known these days of hell may be content indeed with normal half-and-half days like today"--Steppenwolf

My birthday feast was delayed a day because someone was out shopping late, but I didn't mind.

Friday we got a new oven, refrigerator and dishwasher from Costco.  Now I'll be able to bake gingerbread again! We'll also be able to make scalloped potatoes and ham, and chicken curry.

Saturday afternoon I went to the Articled Meetup at the Reference Library.  We were discussing the corona virus, which didn't really interest me but the group looks promising.

At the singing group Sunday, we sang the Broadway show tune "You Gotta Have Heart."

Today I made my bed, only to find out that someone had earlier scattered some odour-eating baking soda on the mattress, so I had to unmake it to remove the stuff! (I should have procrastinated like I usually do...)

Today I finally finished the Thai history book. (In 1978 their top export was tapioca!) So I started reading Hermann Hesse's psychological novel Steppenwolf, translated from German.  I've read thirty-odd pages and it's pretty crazy!

Thursday, February 06, 2020

My 58th

Today was my 58th birthday.  Maria had a surprise for me--we got a guided tour of the Royal Canadian Military Institute!  Among other things, we got to see the seat the Red Baron was sitting in when he got shot down.  Sergei, Malcolm, Krystyna and John S. were also there.  Afterward, Debi joined us for lunch at the Midi bistro, where they put a candle on my profiteroles.  Maria gave me an old copy of the collected poems of Lord Tennyson. (I'd been reciting "The Eagle" by heart.) And John S. has given me a gift subscription to the US history magazine American Heritage.

Elizabeth, whom I had lunch with last week, gave me a cute birthday card.  She has nice handwriting (a dying art, of course).

Sunday I went to the singing group's rehearsal, which was going to start over an hour earlier, but when I got there it turned out that it had been cancelled because of the snow! (The email came just after I left, of course.) Oh well, I was glad to get out of the house.

Monday night I went to the Short Story Meetup.  We discussed three more Chekhov stories: "The Student," "Anna on the Neck" and "The House With the Mezzanine."

The Thai history book is getting more interesting!  Chulalungkorn was King around the same time as Meiji's Japan and embarked on a similar program of modernization and developing a nation-state, but while Meiji inherited from the shoguns a bureaucracy that made top-down changes easier, Chulalungkorn (also known by the shorter name Rama V) had to work more gradually and wait for many in the old order to retire or die.  Which makes his achievements all the more impressive!

On Youtube I've been watching "Musical Hell," a channel with reviews of bad musical movies.  I have to admit I have a soft spot for Xanadu, even the silly animated scene!